tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24415762.post6296662015635589006..comments2023-11-05T02:13:37.607-06:00Comments on lemmondrops: this and thatEmiliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18186651382354924497noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24415762.post-53165744312474088752008-01-11T23:28:00.000-06:002008-01-11T23:28:00.000-06:00Em- I've been formulating a post in my mind about ...Em- I've been formulating a post in my mind about siblings and how Alex is doing with all the changes. Seeing your post tonight and your mention of checking my blog for insights gave me the motivation to get those words out and write something. So check it out when you have time... :)Marketing Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01092466674384204546noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24415762.post-11968917302025811952008-01-11T20:13:00.000-06:002008-01-11T20:13:00.000-06:00Susanne, trying to compare my situation to yours i...Susanne, trying to compare my situation to yours is sort of like comparing apples to oranges; you've been through so much more than me — two surgeries, chemo, radiation, all the heart and voice issues — and you've dealt with yours for so much longer. I've only lived with this for a few months. Who knows where I'd be, emotionally, if I were in your shoes? Please don't beat yourself up.Emiliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18186651382354924497noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24415762.post-43483675486112984662008-01-11T11:32:00.000-06:002008-01-11T11:32:00.000-06:00Okay, I'm sorry for that vent above, although I th...Okay, I'm sorry for that vent above, although I think the anger that fueled it is very real. <BR/><BR/>But as far as what Ellen said, it's true, Em, that your own maturity in dealing with your cancer has helped me deal with my own. Yes, even given the vent above, I'm doing better after having seen you deal with yours so well. Maybe it's because you have a supportive husband, who knows. But seeing how well you deal with it has "given me permission" to deal with my own in a better way. I think I've mentioned this before. And like Ellen said, if the "c" pattern trickles down the line of sisters, we need good examples like you. My own inability to emotionally deal with cancer is not a good example to my sisters.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24415762.post-46355174437632498622008-01-11T11:13:00.000-06:002008-01-11T11:13:00.000-06:00I was at a violin lesson when I was 22, and my lym...I was at a violin lesson when I was 22, and my lymph nodes were so swollen by this time. It was just weeks before my diagnosis, and by this time I sensed something was truly wrong. My violin teacher was talking about how I had a lot of potential, and how "the sky's the limit." I had a sinking feeling in my stomach when he said this. I knew there was something more powerful than violin talent that was going to rip through any potential I had. It was a disgusting, horrifying feeling that I remember to this day. Yes, I survived cancer, but the road was so rocky that the scars I have nowdays tear through any quality of life. The fact that I didn't even need the radiation treatment, because the Hodgkins came back anyway - if only the spread would have been caught BEFORE I had radiation, I would have had JUST he chemo. As it was, I had both, possibly all for nothing. And it's the radiation that is responsible for my heart problems (which have shortened my life), my aweful voice, and my high risk to breast cancer. It's almost like I would have been better off having caught the Hodgkins LATER, because I ended up needing the advanced treatment regardless, and could have skipped that foul radiation treatment.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24415762.post-13683228967200460232008-01-10T19:17:00.000-06:002008-01-10T19:17:00.000-06:00Em, you will have a long, healthy life! You must b...Em, you will have a long, healthy life! You must believe that you will because somehow or another, it keeps the world going. If anything, it will keep the rest of us going if turns out the "c" pattern trickles down our line of sisters.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com