Steve brought the boys in today, as he did yesterday, and it was so good to hear Daniel's chatty chatter and see Ben's big grins. I think he's getting ready to crawl! He's getting good at lifting his butt into the air and scooting forward, as he did on my hospital bed. I missed seeing that progress in the past week, so it was a fun surprise. Both boys have charmed the nurses. Daniel says "hi" to anyone who comes into the room, and he likes to push the buttons that make my bed go up and down. He's getting better about staying out of non-childproof areas, and today I even walked with him down to the lounge so he could look at cars and bridges from his seventh-floor vantage point. He thought that was cool.
I am still at the hospital. We spent a good part of the morning going back and forth about plans, but the end result is that I am going to spend one more night here (to get another dose of antibiotics). Tomorrow morning, I am going to have my Hickman catheter removed, as they believe it is most definitely infected, and replaced with a PIC line inserted into my arm so I can be sent home for two weeks of antibiotic IV treatment to get rid of this infection. The PIC line will come out after the antibiotics are done, and I don't know what they'll use for my next round of chemo, which is scheduled for later in December.
I'm not too happy about these latest developments - shooting the breeze in the hospital for another full day with nothing to do but wait for a round of antibiotics tonight, losing the convenient catheter that I've been so careful about maintaining for months (and that has allowed me to avoid many an arm poke for blood draws). I'm not happy about it, but I don't want to dwell on it today. This whole week has taxed my spirits and scared me a lot, and I need to find some way to breathe back some positive vibes.
I really want to say thank you to all of you for your support. I don't know some of you in person, but I do feel like I've gotten to know you through your blogs and our shared experiences. (Card Blue and L, and Josh, and other sarcoma bloggers especially.) I am offering up Thanksgiving prayers for you all week.