Tuesday, August 28, 2007

the c-word

The doctor called with the results of my MRI. My mind is all hazy with shock and the words he used swirling around my head. Mass. Cancerous. Large. Likely malignant. I need to see a surgeon now. I have an appointment tomorrow. I can't believe, can't fathom, that this is happening. What does this mean for my unborn baby? What does it mean for my life? What does it mean for Daniel, for Steve? I am just ... stunned ... I never expected this to happen now in a thousand years. I've got to pull myself together, for Daniel's sake at least. He still needs to eat and play and cuddle and have his diaper changed, after all. We're going to go to Woodbury to meet Steve and have lunch so we can talk about this in person. Pray for me.

19 comments:

Kristine said...

oh Emilie. I cannot even imagine what you are feeling and/or thinking right now. You guys are all in my thoughts. I know it's easier said than done, but you need to be strong - for yourself, your baby, Daniel and Steve. You can be strong. Here are well wishes and happy thoughts to you.. **

Anonymous said...

Oh Emilie, oh my God.

Just got off the phone with Dad - he says you called.

Please call if you need, or if you prefer not, that's fine too. Whatever you prefer.

When is your surgery?

Susanne

LutherLiz said...

Oh Emilie. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. I know that you are an incredibly strong and faithful woman and while I can't imagine what you must be feeling I know you'll face this head on. Please let me know if there is anything you need.

Jamie said...

Emilie, I am sending you all of my prayers right now. I understand this road, and if there is anything at all that I can do for you, please do not hesitate to call.

Anonymous said...

Emilie, I just got on your blog to see if there are pictures from Daniel's party and instead I see this. I am crying for you, and praying for you, my dear friend. Please know there is a wave of love and support surrounding you from your friends and family, and we are here to help you through this. -Vanessa

Ray said...

Oh, I'm so sorry.

liz said...

Oh, Em... you have been such a pillar of strength for me during so many times, and I hope I can be the same for you with whatever you need. I am thinking about you so much and you're in my constant prayers. Much love to you...

Soupy said...

I am in tears of shock reading this. Emilie, you are in my prayers. Stay strong and know you have so many people behind you on this. Ask the Lord for strength and He will provide! Hugs and hugs and hugs!

Missy said...

Emilie, I'll be praying for you and your family. I'm so sorry and in shock at your news.

Eric, Cindy, Aidan and Clancey said...

Emilie, I'm staring at the computer, not quite sure what to type. I'm thinking of you and your family and I'll keep thinking and praying until I hear you're OK. Lots of hugs heading your way.

Vicki (aka Kodi's mommy) said...

Emilie - there is nothing I can say. Please know that you are in my prayers and if there is anything I can do, you only need to ask.

Monkeymama said...

Continued prayers for health and strength. I'm so sorry you are going through this.

Sara said...

I will be thinking about you (and Steve and Daniel) and will keep you in my prayers. Know there are so many people who care about you.

Anonymous said...

oh Emilie, I am so sad to read this. What an incredible shock. I offer up prayers for you and your family, and wish you much strength.

Aimee

Laura said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers....

Anna's Mommy said...

Emilie-
I'm so very, very sorry to read your news. Strength and prayers to you during this difficult time.

Theresa

Kerry said...

Holy crap. I am just shocked and speachless. You have whatever I can give you- prayers, wathcing Daniel if you need an appt., anything.

Thinking and praying for you and your family.

Roxy said...

I would love to use foul language right now (you know I am good at it, but I won't. Know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. We are here anytime.

You are a wonderfully strong woman and you have an incredible husband. You can handle anything thrown your way.

Ellen said...

Sorry Em, I didn't read this post until almost a day after you posted but I already knew. This is really shocking and you are strong for taking all the right steps so far and thinking for the well-being of your children. I believe in your strength to get through this. I love you. We're here always.