Thursday, October 9, 2008
stream of consciousness
blah. what a shitty afternoon ... daniel wouldn't nap and wouldn't nap and i wanted to nap and he just kept being so damn cute playing with my hat, pulling it off my head, playing with my hair, my ears, my eyes, i touched your eye, laughing. i smile but i want him to take a nap so i can nap, and i'm so tired, and finally after an hour and a half and a mess of tomfoolery, i say you can take a nap, or you can go out and play with anna and benjamin, and he says ok, so i take him out there and say, now i'm going to go rest, but then he wants to come back with me because he is so attached to me and doesn't want to be without me. so there's more of the goofing off in the bed and i am not getting any sleep until anna takes him and ben for a stroller ride. finally. so then tonight we have a ticket to go see an author speak about how to cope when your kids are driving you nuts, and i am in such a bad mood cooking dinner, about to explode, poor steve keeps rubbing my shoulders and that helps a little, and then i'm running late and i drive to the school where it says it's going to be but it's not there, a lady says the location was changed, it's at a different school, so i drive to the new school, and i see teacher sue there, and she gives me a huge hug which feels good, and i go sit down, and the talk would be better if i weren't in such a shitty crappy mood, and all i end up doing is feeling really guilty that we don't have daniel's bedtime and naptime scheduled to a t. well, crap, come live at my house for a week. i guess there were some good ideas, but by 8 i was so antsy and irritated i decided to go home early, and when i got home, daniel was in his pajamas and gave me a big hug and kiss, and jane had just gotten benjamin to sleep, and she laid him down on our big bed, and he's there now, and i'm really in the mood to buy some new shoes or stationery or something pretty.